Let the Word of God Speak..

( a blog I just posted on my myspace)


Current mood: blessed
Category: Life




Even tho I wrote alot in the blog as the song says... I'm finding myself at a loss for words.. and the funny thing is.. it's okay.



( warning- I jump around with my thoughts alot 8) )

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

--Hebrews 11:1



I believe we all have hopes and dreams.We tend to create and shape our hopes and dreams according to difficulties we currently endure and trials and tribulations we are currently facing. To me Happiness & Joy are two seperate entities. I believe that you can still have Joy inside of you even when you are sad. (the Joy comes from the Lord) Some of you know, I really like C.S.Lewis. He once said "Faith is the art of holding on to things your reason has once accepted in spite of your changing moods''. I am often reminded of this quote. I completely agree with it. Everything that I've been going thru, beleive me when I say my moods have been everchanging. (which many of you have witnessed first hand) Still thru it all my faith is still with me.Even tho I may have not acted like it.. I have not doubted my belief in God for a single solitary second. I'm grateful, I know that God is the one who has given me my faith, i'm grateful for it. I think these two ideas (of joy and faith) coincide. Okay my thoughts are starting to shift to I need to get back on track to what I want to write. ...


Right now it is 6:00 AM Wednesday Morning. I only slept for about and hour , yes I am tired. But my body.. my heart.. something isn't letting me fall asleep. My heart is being tugged at to share whats on my mind. The things is I don't really know how to explain what is racing thru my mind. It's about this past Sunday. I'm just gonna start off explaning my day. Well... I worked the night before. (sat.) from three pm to 3 am. Which I had also done on Friday. So I wake up crank. Very very cranky. I just didn't feel good. Some of you know what's been going on with me and my migranes so on and so forth.. so yes I woke up with a Migrane and I was just cranky. I was tired, moody, and probaly not very nice to my family. I had a feeling, I couldn't explain.. I was trying to ignore it. Some people say When making decisions, "they" say we should trust that inner voice and follow our gut, ( or your heart) right? And then again ther is that pesky notion that the heart is "desperately wicked" and generally untrustworthy. Only God knows our true hearts. We decipher what our heart is telling us the wrong way, very often. At least I know I do. Maybe atleast half the time. If I could buy more...(wise) discernment I would spend every cent I have on it. All I'm saying is that sometimes when I follow my "heart" things turn out great... and I know I did what God wanted me to do.. and other times I guess I ignore my heart or listen to it the wrong way, and then end up slapping myself across the face. I hope that in time.. I will see much improvement. Okay, here I go getting off track again. I guess it's okay tho.. I shouldn't be so hard on myself , it's is 6:00 AM. So back to Sunday morning. I had a wierd maybe uneasy feeling, (in my heart) that something was going to happen. And I was trying to ignore it. I pretty much moped around with the time I had, and soon it was 2:00 and I was rushing to get ready for work. I was getting ready to leave and my Mom said she would make me lunch and pack it for me. I was like, yaye 8) When she gave it to me, she said "It's like I'm packing your lunch as if you were 5 years old again". It was just a sweet moment I will prob always remember. Soo.. I grabbed my stuff and say goodbye to Mom Dad Trinity Truitt and Aunt Roe. Pretty much running out the door.. Truitts following me saying something. Mom yells to me "listen to him", That's a mother for ya, she could tell I couldn't hear him. Truitt was following me, I turned around and said what Truitt? .. he says "Be careful, Becareful, Be caaareee fullll Aunt Shayna", with that serious yet cute look. He was smirking a bit that you could see his left dimple. I smiled said okay, yelled "Bye, Love you's" and slammed the back door shut. Walking to my car.. still have that wierd feeling I had all morning. And what My Godson had just said to me.. added alittle more something indescribable to that feeling. Work work work, going well.. off to My supper break at 7 . I didn't check my voicemail at all that day yet.. so I decide to check it. Come to find I had 7 unheard messages. I listened to two and was going to close my phone, cause I only had a few mins left, and I knew if I listened to all 7 messages I would be late for work. Anyway.. I felt like I should listen to at least one more message. I mean why did, i have 7? That's quite a few. What If something was wrong. I had to listen to one more.. so I did. It was a message from a friend, that I consider a brother. (and he doesn't know this, but "captain obvious shayna"... "i guess he will now") The message he left me was him singing a song to me. Something so random.. yet now I know... it was God. (the whole day.. with the uneasy feeling.. I was trying to ignore... and you didn't ingore what was laid on your heart , so (you know who you are) THANK YOU!! It was ... "Word of God Speak" . the lyrics...



I'm finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it's okay
The last thing I need is to be heard
But to hear what You would say

[CHORUS]
Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You're in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak

I'm finding myself in the midst of You
Beyond the music, beyond the noise
All that I need is to be with You
And in the quiet hear Your voice

[REPEAT CHORUS 2x]

I'm finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it's okay



I cried thru the whole song, because I just realized, that's God was trying to speak to me all day. About what.. he wanted me to listen to him.






Soo.. wipe my tears.. getting back to work. The night went well. Still have a feeling something was going on. That something was going to happen. I was praying and just trying to be very alert.. and listen to everything a little closer and pay a little more attention to every little thing.. (more then what I would usually do) . So the night is almost over. One of the residents I took care of is actually a Women who grew up In Summit hill. (the town I live in ) Ever since the day we met, we pretty much get along. We are each others hillers 8). Any way she knew I would be leaving in a few mins and she told me to be careful. I told her I would be. She said okay, just becareful. I said I would be. She said okay My Hiller cause I care about ya, please be careful. Just as Truitt had told me to be careful 3 times. hmmm... coincidence? Or God?





I was in another residents room , and I said goodbye to my 2 co workers. (one of whom is friends with my sister and she told me she was gonna add me on Myspace. we were gonna plan to get together. ..so she was gonna message me her number.) anyway I say goodnight and started walking away, (I had that feeling yet, and something told me..you better get her number ...now)and so I turned back. I walked over to her and pulled out a piece of paper, and told her to just write her number on the back of it. I wasn't going to get it then cause I was tired and just wanted to leave. I knew I'd see her in a few days. Anyway this only took a few seconds. NO BIGGIE.. right.. didn't make no difference.



So I thought. SO I leave work at 3 am. Something aboout that number 3 that day huh. I drove a few mins .. Then boom. Usually when you see a car coming you see the headlights.. well I didn't. Not untill the car was directly in front of me. I don't know.. but I was going 45 mph, my guess they were at least a 100 mph. And the car was completely on my side of the road. I had no rection time to do anything before she hit me.(i was abel to move over about 7 inches) She managed to try to get back on her side of the road.. thank God she managed to move over about 2 or so feet. She side swipe me.

And they kept driving. Never stopped. Here I am all alone. Pitch black out side. No lights anyway except my car lights, balling my eyes out... pretty much in shock.. broken glass all over me and yeah.. soo here we goo. .. I call 911. Then my home. Ended up waiting about 2o mins all alone waiting for the cops. Here they thought they were with me. Because agirl on the same road (around the bend) with a "little red car".. ran over a bunch of signs.. hit a tree, then wrapped a utility pole. PP&L drove passed me.. stopped the guy looked at me.. then kept going. He told the cops.. about me being right up the road.



sooo the girl that crashed was Drunk. Thankfully she is okay. So.. yeah... now it's an open hit and run investigation. The articles prob gonna be in the paper tomorrow, but IDK. The police told me they are almost positive it was her. It all adds up. They said if I would of been inches over.. or a few seconds earlier... yep. BYE BYE LOVE. So everything.. all put together.. espically that "NO BIGGIE".. a few seconds wasted getting a friends cell number... made A difference. And I'm thanking God for it. He speaks to us all in different ways.. the thing is.. we have to listen.. if we are ever gonna figure out what he is trying to tell us. This one day, really impacted me. It's like more reassurance has been to me .. with a few things and I"m grateful to say the least.









As I said before... My time here is undone. God does have plans for my life. They may be small things they may be large. But nevertheless he does have something instore for me. I just hope I'm listening closer each and every day to his voice.







Let Him have all your worries and cares, for He is always thinking about you and watching everything that concerns you. 1 Peter 5:7





I am leaving you with a gift - peace of mind and heart! And the peace I give isn't fragile like the peace the world gives. So don't be troubled or afraid. John 14:27



Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything; tell God your needs, and don't forget to thank Him for His answers. If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will keep your thoughts and your hearts quiet and at rest as you trust in Christ. Philippians 4:6-7





What can we ever say to such wonderful things as these? If God is on our side, who can ever be against us? Since He did not spare even His own Son for us but gave Him up for us all, won't He also surely give us everything else? Romans 8:31-32

and one more verse.. 8)...



I will lie down in peace and sleep, for though I am alone, Oh Lord, you will keep me safe.Psalms 4:8

Okay it is 6:30 am now . I guess my day is starting soon . I have a appointment this morning and other stuff to do. I would say "I'm going to cut this short" (because I have so much more I could right.. but this is soo long already.

I wrote this blog. based on the feeling.. tugging at my heart... that this is what God wanted me to do. I hope if anyone.. maybe it would encourage one person. 8)







You are the Potter I am the Clay.. Mold me

and Make me. .. this is what I pray.





Much Love..